A heart that beats for You.


In the middle of the skies and the lands lies a heart which intends to be everything it’s meant to be; which aspires to live out the promises to it; which continues to beat because of His grace.

A heart that recovers because it can take refuge in Him. A heart that sees the light when everything else is dim. A heart that feels peace because He takes all the worry. And a heart that rejoices for He has brought the victory.

A heart that sings because He deserves all the praise. A heart that dances along all of His ways. A heart that knows the fullness of His love. And heart that knows, He is enough.

A heart that loves because He showed how it’s done. A heart that surrendered for the missions of the Kingdom. A heart who will follow Jesus alone. And a heart that would want, into His embrace, be flown.


Spiritual thought #5

God’s love goes from east to west. It goes very far, so vastly that any inch of anger, pain, disappointment, frustration — whether towards yourself or others — should not have any place in your life, and in your heart. What I am trying to say is that God’s love — even His mercy and grace — is readily available. All you have to do is make the decision whether to take it or not.

So when the time comes you are not sure what to give others, seek and find the things that God readily offers to all of us. They don’t deserve it? Same as you. But you have it anyway. Sometimes, we are just blinded by the things of this world that would later on be the reason of our regrets. Don’t let that happen. Don’t let anything strangle and hold you down. Be free because Jesus has already set you free.

This has been reminded to me because as an individual, I unconsciously want to learn things the hard way. Don’t follow my steps. Listen when you’re told to listen. Obey to wiser ones when you’re not sure what to do next. And be firm because to stay grounded in His wisdom is among the best things you can ever do. Skip all the drama, skip all the hurt. Be the best person God intends you to be.

God loves you.
Don’t ever doubt that.
Don’t ever hesitate that.

More or less a year in the making for the next spiritual thought. So glad to be writing again.

Work’s achievement #1

I have been told not to cry over work just because it won’t love you back. I pretty much held on to it and having that mindset actually worked.

But today is not like it. Work has finally done it. It made me cry. Hooray. Achievement unlocked.

Almost 10 months here and I can say that this chapter is one of those fast-paced ones in my life. I met a lot of people, learned a lot of things, and saved more MS Excel files than I ever had in my more or less 15 years of studying.

But what weren’t taught in school were a lot of things: nerve-wracking frustrations, instant headaches, and inevitable cradling of pressure. School did not prepare me for these, though I’m glad it didn’t.

Don’t get me wrong, though. Working is fun. I enjoy learning new things almost everyday. I am happy with the people I’m working with. And I’m excited to achieve the goals that were agreed upon. It’s just that, I ask God every single day, “Why me? Why here?”

I hope I didn’t ask. (I’m kidding, by the way.) It’s always the same answer: “It has to be you. It has to be there.” Sometimes, I don’t understand. There are other people that are stronger, more aggressive, and smarter than I am. Yet, I’m the one He chose. He meticulously made up this plan only for me. As a matter of fact, when everything at work gets into me, I am always reminded that God has that faith in me that I can deliver the tasks with His help. Because if not, I’ve long quitted.

Voices were calling out to me saying that I should go, that I would be just frustrated all the time. But, how about no? First, those voices are not the boss of me. And second, my Commander, my God, still says, “Fight!” My weapon, the truth that Jesus Christ reigns over all things, is pretty much sufficient until He comes back.

I told you working is fun.
But it’s probably more fun when you know Who you are working for.

Work willingly at whatever you do, as though you were working for the Lord rather than for people. Remember that the Lord will give you an inheritance as your reward, and that the Master you are serving is Christ. (Colossians 3:23, 24 NLT)

Of wisdom and extraction.


Oh, it’s been so long since the last time I’ve blogged. Heehee. I have these excuses that I, myself, would not accept. LOL.

Anyway, how are you? How are things?

With me, well, I have a scheduled wisdom teeth extraction on Friday, January 31. Yes. You read that right. Teeth. Two wisdom teeth will be pulled out. And I’m scared. Not only on how painful it’s gonna be. But also on the fact that it rummaged my finances. *sigh*

You know what? This is but a lesson God is trying to teach me. How did I know? Simple. I have been saving up for the training I’m going to attend by April. The amount that I told myself that’s going to be kept is the exact amount I’m going to pay for the extraction. Literally the exact amount. So, what’s in there?

I’m limiting what my God can do with almost about everything. I’m saving up for the training because I want to prove to myself that I can do it, that I can control the impulse purchases. In that brief moment, pride got in. At some point, I’m stopping the chance that others could bless me.

It’s God. It’s always been God. My strength comes from Him. My comfort, joy, and peace flow freely from His heart to mine. I can’t claim that “I” can do it. Because our everyday living is but a supernatural moment. The natural is with humans; the super is care of God.

You see, I’ve said on the first part of this post that it’s “my finances.” Nope, it’s God’s. I’m reminded that I’m just taking care of what are rightfully His.

May you please include me in your prayers? I’m nervous about the operation. Err, it’s just minor, I know. But it’s the first one I’m going to have in my 21 years of existence. *eeks*

Can you see how we can glorify God, even with wisdom tooth extraction? Amazing.

Thank youuu! Sending this flying hug! Maybe you need one. 🙂

God bless you!


I guess that’s why I’m not that easy to be loved.

Because I’m just the same as everyone: a sinner.

Ever had that moment when you know some other people did something wrong, then you’d let them go away with it just because you’re afraid what they would say?

I just had it.

It’s just sad that one would choose to cover every little filthy thing of this world with what it has promised them. Not knowing – not thinking — that there’s Someone who looks over and sees every little thing.

However, it had made me realize something. That we, humans, are not easy to be loved. With every flaw that we have, with every decision that we make that could kill us, with every blemish that our selfishness has scarred us, God doesn’t see all of that because of Jesus.

Imagine yourself standing in the throne room of God and you are to be reminded of every sin that you have done. But then Jesus would stand by your side, before His Father, and say, “None of those matters. I’ve finished it all at the cross. This child of Yours believed in me and lived out the mission You had for him.”

I praise God for His everyday grace and mercy. I thank Jesus for what He has done for me. If it weren’t for all those, I think I won’t be able to understand how great the love of the Father is.

For we are God’s handiwork, created in Christ Jesus to do good works, which God prepared in advance for us to do. – Ephesians 2:10 (NIV)

Thank You, God. I think I understand now why You have placed me here.


How can you tell someone that “It’s all part of God’s plan,” when they are hurting, when they are blinded by their own pain, when they are deceived by the world’s lies?



I am sure that you believe it, that you’re saying it, because you have experienced it. You can never tell other people how you got addicted to an ice cream flavor, or got hooked up with a television series if you haven’t gotten a taste of it, or watched an episode or two.

Just like faith. You can’t show others how it works if you don’t know how to start, where to start.

I will be honest that I was once imprisoned by the darkness that embraces those who are empty. I didn’t believe that everything was according to plan because I don’t want to accept that I lost something, that I’m letting go of an “important” thing in my life.

I was wrong.

We are impatient. In this world, we want instant results because we try to keep up with the pace. We fear that if we don’t have it now, it’ll be gone, forever.

But have you asked yourself, “Was it meant to be mine?” Yes, maybe. Then why it’s taken away from you?

Because you are to be handed with what is truly yours. You are to be given with what you deserve. You need to see who knows what’s best for you.

Nothing in this world is ours. Your house, your car, your job, your money, even your body is not yours. Everything is God’s! Our pain, our struggles, our frustrations; He even tells us to give it all to Him, and He’ll give us rest (Matthew 11:28). Now, wouldn’t you agree to a deal like that?

I may be one of those people you heard from who says, “God has a plan for you,” or “Trust in Him. He knows what He is doing.” Then maybe, you are one of those who answered, “If that’s the case, then why am I hurting?,” or “I don’t need anybody.”

Friend, I can’t answer all of your questions. I’m human, too, you know. I feel the same emotions that you have, and I’m going through life just like everybody else. But if there’s one thing that I’m sure of, it’s that we are all children of God, and we are part of His Kingdom. He even said that He has plans for us, plans to prosper us and not harm us, plans to give us future and hope (Jeremiah 29:11). If you can handle written examinations, thesis defenses, work escalations, business rejections, and relationship denials, imagine how easy it can get when you keep in mind that a Savior died on the cross to save you, then lives again to see you succeed in life.

I know it’s hard. I know it hurts. I know it’s unfair. But self-pity and doing nothing will get you nowhere. Only God knows what will happen to you. It is a very wise decision to trust in Him, even if He only shows you a glimpse of it. He doesn’t reveal to us everything because it takes heart and a firm “Yes, Lord!” to carry out a mission from the Kingdom.

Live in faith. Live in hope. Live in Jesus Christ. Only then you will understand why you can still give thanks even though it hurts. 🙂

Number two

Hi mister-whom-God-has-meant-for-me,

I miss you.
I don’t know where you are right now, but just to let you know, I’m excited to have you in my life.

I have a lot to share with you: my dreams, ambitions, frustrations, weird habits, OC problems, random rants, instant cryings, everything. These are the reasons that I’ll use to intentionally shut you off. Let’s see how far you can get along with me. XD

If there’s one thing that I CAN promise you, it’s this one:

I would never ask you to have your world turn around me, for I would never want you to live your life for me.

It’s enough that you live, that you breathe. There’d be nothing more I’d ask for.

While I’m still waiting for you, I’ll make sure I’m taking good care of myself. I’m hoping you’re doing the same. Heehee.

I love you.
See you — in God’s right time.

Your Number Two,

Psychotically psychotic.

I was often asked of why I took up B.S. Psychology. And I always gave the same answer: I want to work in Human Resources. It seems shallow, but I can’t think of any other reason.

When I was five years old, I wanted to be a nurse. During grade school, I had this insane interest in sciences and computers that’s why I considered taking up Computer Science. (Yes, I know. It’s very funny.) Came high school and it seemed that every plan for college just disappeared for I was preoccuppied with the time and effort that a Science High School demanded. Preparations only resumed during 4th year HS. By that time, I was not sure of what course to take up.

I can’t take up any Engineering course, for formulas and any-other-things-I-don’t-know would kill me. Accountancy, another no-go for I had a fear that I won’t be able to pass the board exam. Fine Arts, Architecture, uh no. A five-year old child draws better than I do. Business course, I just don’t have any interest in it. So, I have crossed out every single possible course there is, until Psychology appealed to me.

If my memory serves me right, it was my cousin who suggested this Psychology-thingy, for it was her dream course. I didn’t have any idea about it at that time, but she assured me of one thing: I will be able to work in an office. I grew up with my mom taking me to their office during weekends and I became fond of the paper shredder machine and the stamp pads and the electric sharpener. (Random trivia: I would enjoy shopping for office supplies more than shopping for clothes and shoes.)

I took admission tests in three universities. One of them is UST. (Duh, obviously.) I took the test in University A some time August. In University B, in November. And in UST, December. So it went like this.

University A is dubbed as “Dream University” of every student. I can’t argue with that for it was one of the reasons why I had my hopes up that I will pass the test.

My parents considered University B because it is near our home. I actually passed the test there. I was even offered a scholarship. But I didn’t tell my parents about that part. Shhh! I just didn’t want to study there.

I was discouraged by my Dad to study in UST. First, financial reasons. Second, it is far from home. But I told them that I only wanted to try if I will pass. Just try. I applied for B.S. Psychology for 1st choice, and B.S. Computer Science for 2nd choice.

To cut the story short, by January, UST released the test results and I PASSED! Both choices! I passed! I was so happy that I even wished to fail the University A entrance test. And yeap. I did not get in for I was below the quota it had. And fast forward to today, I am now a Thomasian Psychology graduate. Boom.

I had this post going so I am sure I am jumping from one thought to another. But what I really wanted to share to you guys is that I just got hired by Ericsson Telecommunications as one of their Organizational Management Coordinators. So, yay! Leaving the bum life now! But I’m sure I will miss it big time.


Anyway, I’m very excited to start working. But I’m more hyped on how God will use me in that work place. I am anticipating of how I can glorify His name. I am expectant for what He will reveal to me over time. I know that this company is the one God picked out for me.

So, there. Thank you for keeping up with this post. Much appreciated if you are still reading up to this point. XD Sending much love and a big hug!

Spiritual thought #4

I want to take this opportunity to thank God for what He has done in my life.

Just yesterday, I was on that state of nothingness. I felt like I am not doing anything. It felt like I am not going anywhere. It felt like I am nothing.

But night came, and unexpectedly, I was able to speak life to someone who looks down to himself. I was able to recall the words that God placed in me. I felt like those words were boomerangs, not really knowing I need it, too.

A big opportunity came knocking on our doors in the least of time that we expected it. We are given the chance to impart the knowledge that undoubtedly God placed upon us. Now, I am claiming that God will provide. If He allows it, He would give us what we need.

Another chance surprised me just a while ago, and this one will surely change my life. Another chapter is about to unfold, and I am given assurance that God will always be my side all the time. I am so excited.

Rejoice in the Lord always. I will say it again: Rejoice! (Philippians 4:4 NIV)

Not only in the good times, but rejoice in the Lord ALWAYS. Even in the bad times. As it was said, the lonely times are just God’s reminder that we need to dig our relationship with Him a little deeper.

Stay faithful and patient with the Lord. He listens, provides, and heals you. Above all, He loves you.